#i am actually going to learn time management this time 💪 hopefully.

[crescentfool]

it august

and that means theres four months until december 31st... or is it like basically five months.. well whatever... you know what i mean...

[curtainmouse]

guess whooooo ! 🎤🐍

my favorite part of the experience (not really a specific part of tit so not a spoiler for anyone that sees this) was that it just made it so clear how much they love us and each other and it warms my heart that the phandom has come this far and it truly feels like a phamily :))

im sorry to hear about your scholarship ! hopefully you can get it back, and i hope with all of my heart that you can get any resources you need to do whats right for you. im actually taking this semester off doing online courses at a community college in my hometown, but next semester i'll go back to my university and try to pick up where i left off. school isn't for everyone, i'm coming to learn, but unfortunately it feels required 😫

i only started listening to muse maybe 2 months ago at most and they've quickly racked up minutes on my spotify. i wouldn't be surprised if they came out at number 1 despite the odds. i cant believe ive gone like 8 years in the phandom without giving a proper listen to them, besides uprising. i suppose the current fixation is the best i can do to make up for lost time 💪

chinese is so cool omg. ive never tried learning it but from my understanding it's rather complicated. i understand spanish as i grew up with it and with that means mildly understanding other latin based languages, like french. speaking, grammar, conjugation and the like are a different story tho, so hopefully one day i'll lock in and level up my skills and be able to actually say i'm fluent in spanish

i was gonna write something in french but i've quickly realized i know like actually nothing... if i read a meme in french i could probably get it but i have no vocabulary so cheval fromage oui oui baguette i guess 🥖

i am totally a serial killer and im outside your house ready to practice signing with you 🤺

for reasons undisclosed i do think you're onto me 😅 while i'm enjoying the pen-pal-snail-mail we've got going, i'll maybeeeee send a dm soon if i can stop being insane. i haven't talked to new people or made online friends in a really long time and for some reason a part of me feels like i'll be shot on sight for the crime of being mildly annoying lmao

throwing breadcrumbs at your window,

-🐍

that was definitely my favourite part of tit too. i love how much they love us, and that they're no longer afraid to love eachother out loud. it felt so special, like a little secret and a huge family gathering at the same time. i get emotional if i think about how much growth this required. i also got to meet one mutual (hi manda if you're reading this), so that was pretty fun too.

don't worry about my scholarship, thankfully it doesn't make or break uni for me. honestly, i feel like i do have access to the resources i need to be successful i just... can't? i'm too stuck in my head with some things that i don't think i should share publicly. but it makes it really hard to gather the focus or motivation to do any of my work. i'm pretty much staring at my very very manageable pile of things to do and going "fuck, let me think about something i don't even enjoy thinking about instead!" yeah, not very effective. i get what you mean, school really does feel like a necessity. and it feels like a waste to quit it when i've already invested money and time into it. i hope your time with online school has been good to you, i wouldn't mind moving entirely online myself, but i don't really want to move back in with my parents. hopefully things are looking up for you.

i like muse a lot, at least the handful of songs that i've listened to. i think they make excellent use of lyrical and musical tension and are overall just stellar artists. animals reminds me of "the execution of all things" by rilo kiley. not really sure why, but i wonder if you can get what i mean by listening.

it can be complicated, things like the order of strokes you write with matter, so does the exact look of the character, same with small tonal changes per sound that don't exist in english (because it isn't a tonal language). all of that can completely change the meaning of a phrase both in written and spoken chinese, which can be complicated to get a grasp of, especially if you haven't grown up around languages formatted in that way. but an important thing to keep in mind in linguistics is that all languages are equally complex and equally capable of communicating the ideas they need to communicate. i did spend a year learning spanish, but i honestly forgot i did that until my mom reminded me of it. i could probably say 10 words, total, and that's just based on guesses from my knowledge of french. i think you could definitely become fluent in spanish, though. a lot of people have the misconception that language can't be competently acquired past a certain age, but it's really a matter of native-like fluency & acquisition being easier prior to that age. you probably won't be able to speak like a native, but who cares, language is fun and an important bridge between people. you sound like dan in pinof 1 haha. don't serial kill me!

hah, i'm assuming my guess is definitely right then. but i can't lie, i honestly enjoy this snail-mail thing too. it's fun, and i like not having to respond instantly (now i have extra time to panic, score!) the only thing is i'm a little embarrassed that my other followers can read this haha. (hi guys). 😅 but don't worry, you can take all the time you need to get comfortable. i'm not in a rush, i'll be here hunched over my computer until the worms consume my flesh. if you can figure out a way to send snail mail that's a little less public, i'm totally open to ideas. oh and don't stress about annoying me, i really do prefer people who are stereotypically "annoying". i'm pretty bad at keeping up with friendships, i tend to not know when to respond and be pretty dry, which ends up with a lot of my relationships lasting 6 months or less, which is honestly kind of depressing. if i ever do make things awkward or haven't mailed in forever, you're always free to come poke me with a stick.

anyway, sorry for the rambles. politely setting up a heating pad for you

[hhhemberhhh]

SUMMER IS HERE, AND SO AM I (probably not for long because it’s busy)

allow me to fill in the gaps of my absence with a rambling of all the band stuff that’s happened…

We had another concert for community band at the end of April with good music, including Second Suite in F by Gustav Holst (that was our most challenging piece because Jesus Christ)

State MPA, got straight Goods, which I’m not too upset about because our performance wasn’t the best but that only strives us to work harder

Spring Concert, complete with our jazz ensemble, a performance of my clarinet trio from Solo and Ensemble, and an amazing awards ceremony, including a Rookie of the Year award, which I won and was ecstatic about

Leadership interviews for this coming up marching season. I applied for clarinet section leader and the person who manages our band’s social media page because everyone knows me as the person who memes everyone and takes pictures at the most random times. I GOT BOTH 💪💪 (our past clarinet section leader is now assistant drum major so SHE’S GOT BIG THINGS GOING FOR HER)

Seeing people I love leaving because they’ve completed all their years of school… we’ll miss them 🫡

COMING UP THIS NEXT YEAR

on the next episode of band events leading up to marching season…

Community band patriotic concert, with one of our pieces being the famous Stars and Strips Forever

Leadership meetings over the summer giving out sponsorship papers to try and get sponsors, learning the exercises and getting music for band camp, and going over more expectations probably

Leadership TRIP to an arcade and BEACH

Music Festival (that also has an HONOR BAND) at another school towards the end of June

Marching and Leadership Camp at a university in the first week of July. I signed up for this so I look better when our school’s band camp comes around and it’ll be a fun experience

Our school’s band camp towards the end of July where we meet the new kids that are joining band this year

MARCHING SEASON STARTS

and so does school…

Weekly rehearsals for marching drills and breaking out the saxophone for jazz band

(this doesn’t really count as marching band itself but it’s during marching season) Auditions for a very very prestigious concert/honor band in September (the actual event isn’t until January of 2025 🤡)

Marching competitions and MPA in October and marching in the local Homecoming Parade

The transition from marching season to concert season in November, aka breaking out the bassoon

Christmas concert in December

Hopefully marching in the local Christmas Parade

AND CONCLUDE THE 2024 YEAR